Irrational Fears
Ever have that sinking feeling? Have you had it when you knew damn well there was no good reason for it? I am getting it right now. I shouldn’t have it at all. Everything is pretty swell. Things are better now than they have been for the last few months, but for some strange reason I get this sense that maybe something is going to change soon. It is kind of hard to shake.
Part of me is worried that this person I have been talking to but have yet to meet may just up and lose interest in me. My rational side says that is not too likely, but there is always that concern in the back of my mind. Another part is worried about my apartment search, of which I have already sufficiently complained today. This one I know is irrational because just this afternoon I have found some very promising new prospects. Still, the list goes on. I am a firm believer that everything rights itself over time and the world maintains an overall balance. I wouldn’t call it karma or anything… but exactly at what point do you acknowledge these concerns and stop telling yourself they are unfounded and rediculous? For me it is usually after they materalize and something falls apart or goes wrong.
Man, that comes off as sort of downer- but its true and I guess it is meant to be more of a positive statement. That is, saying that I don’t give in to these irrational concerns unless they manifest themselves. After all, it’s way more fun to look at the world through rose colored glasses.
